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tired & troubled

I've known from the start that life after marriage couldn't be all sweet. I know that things will get tougher and more difficult. They come thick and fast altogether at once, and if I can be in my brain, the scene will be like Hiroshima or Nagasaki after that several minutes of Hell in 1945. I've analyzed all of the problems, and they're all rooted from one single cause only. If I manage to double my income, most of those annoying things will just go away with the wind.

It's getting worse during last weekend when suddenly those problems were tried to be solved, I couldn't say anything coz I knew that it'd be just useless. They went with me in every step I take, every air I breathe, and every minute I sleep. That's the reason why sleep can no longer become my shelter. I just notice today that I have bags under my eyes, and they begin to form round my eyes. Whenever I go to sleep now, it's not something enjoyable anymore. I just shut my eyes, and then wake up some 6-7 hours later feeling more restless and tired. I don't have any dream, and I don't have any recollection of what I think and feel during my sleep. It's gone with a snap of your fingers.

I'm so tired and they're out to get me. Fast.

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whistle_bait
Apr. 13th, 2005 03:39 pm (UTC)
I know you can go through it....
What's the matter Lex? You scare me to the life after marriage. I'm about getting married neh! What's going on? Second opinion might help.
(Anonymous)
Apr. 21st, 2005 05:55 pm (UTC)
really? is it how you feel about being married? I'm quite shocked. Anyway, i'm nadia, and i just read ur lj from beams's link.
Hope everything's okay... next time write good stories yah... =)
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